Sometimes we have to express out our feelings so that people know what's on your mind. Communication between couples is kinda important because you express out what you are thinking, letting he/she has a better idea.
He told me lots of thing today and I listened every single word he split out. I shouldn't be so selfish, always care about myself and not thinking about his feelings. While I was listening, I felt sad. Why am I being so selfish enough! Why am I being so stupid! I promised myself not wanting to hurt him again, not wanting to see him sorrow, not wanting to see him cry... But why I am doing this to him?! He loves me so much and he doesn't deserve that. Loving couples should have lived happily. I am sorry... I am sorry being so weak and fragile, letting he worries always. I know he is still worrying me... Wondering if I am alone, will I sms him or will I talk to him. I know he does... But I promise you dear, I didn't and I will never ever have any contact with him.
Jealousy does kill people's feeling. I should have known it. He is doing his best not letting me having a slightly jealous feeling and now is my turn to not to let him jealous anymore. Jealousy can lead to argument, even worst break out. I don't wanna break with a boy who loves me more than his life, who loves me more than anyone else, who dear me and only me. A boy who makes me think of I am the only girl in his life and who wishes for a long term relationship, who wanna held his relationship with me until our marriage until we old. I feel happy for me, having a bf who loves me dearly. I know he loves me by the ways he treats me. He loved me when I didn't deserve to be loved, he forgave me when I didn't deserve to be forgiven, he believed in me when I gave up on myself.
Hubby, I promise you I will never let you down again. I love you more than anyone else and I wish to be your good wifey that everyone who jealous about.
I love you
Kitty
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